I was here first ...

It has been nearly four weeks since the radiation treatment ended and I am feeling pretty darn good. My symptoms are gone and my energy level is strong. I am now up to 175 pounds, which I am excited to say is more than I have weighed since about a year ago.

One of the things I am doing now is lifting weights to try and gain strength before the surgery. I think it is good for me because I can use it as an opportunity to cultivate and focus my aggression towards the disease. One of the temptations I often feel is a passiveness with the cancer. Even though I am feeling good, I do not want to let my guard down. I am still in a fight, and I must remember it is a fight in which there are no negotiations, no treaties, no cooperation and no coexistence. There is no letting up until the extinction of the disease. After all, I was here first.